Well well well a few days later and I’m still ruling healthy eating!!! I’ve not even been that tempted to stray, I’m feeling so much better physically and mentally I don’t want to fuck it up now.
After having a few months binging I didn’t want to know the damage I had done, so instead of weighing and beating myself up.
I simply started again.
Before I went off track this time I was 9 pounds off a 3 stone weightloss. So in my mind, as long as I was at that weight I had counteracted the damage I had done by eating nothing but crap.
Today I weighed myself to see how I was getting on, I was tickled pink to see I am 3.5 pounds off a 3 stone weight loss!!!!
Seeing the numbers fall is more addictive than drugs, it makes me keep going and makes everytime I say no to something naughty worth while.
This morning I was at a cafe with my kiddies. In the queue to get them a drink and a snack my brain went through this process:
Those giant fruit and nut flap jacks look good shall I get one?…. no no far too many syns…. then again that could be my treat for the day?… no no you’ll regret it later when you want a vodka and a Curley whirly…those ham and cheese paninis look good… no no your having a brown pitta bread with dinner don’t have more bread…. hmmmm but they do look really good…. what about crisps you could get quavers…£1 a bag? Yeah I don’t want them that much…. what about the hummus crisps?… holy shit 9 syns a bag maybe not….. fuck it I’ll just get a drink.
Then I sat there, sipping my oasis zero, proud and feeling like I just lost another 0.5 of a pound by saying NO.
I wish I could remember where I learnt my biggest and best tip for saying no, as when I feel myself needing a boost to keep me motivated I’ll do this for a few days and it massively helps remind me of how far I’ve come. It’s quite simple;
Get yourself a notebook and pen, throughout the day every single time to resist something naughty, write it down.
For example, if when you buy your morning coffee your offered a muffin half price with the coffee and you say NO, write it down.
If at work someone offered you a slice of cake or a biscuit with your tea and you say NO, write it down.
If at lunch time you walk past McDonald and mentally argue with yourself about having it and end up saying NO, write it down.
If at dinner time you toy with the idea of a takeaway but resist, wrote it down.
Then at the end of the day add up the syns you said no to, you will be amazed at what that number on the bottom of the page says.
It’ll show you how far you have actually come at saying no and that every time you do, it’s weight that otherwise would be going on.
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