Why did I think it was a good idea to try Blogmas? I have utterly failed. I have been so busy I’ve not even had time to sit down with a coffee. Work is INSANE as well as all the kiddies Christmas activities. Why did I think I would be able to fit in writing daily blog posts at my busiest most hectic time of year?!
For the first 8 days I was finding the time no problem, Work haven’t picked up too bad yet and I was feeling inspired, I had so much to say. I then I missed day 9, and explained why on day 10, I posted on day 11 and that is where I stopped. I felt so conflicted, I really wanted to keep up the momentum, but for several reasons I didn’t.
Time was a big one, working all day and all evening was leaving zero time for writing. My inspiration was dwindling, I didn’t know what to write about. For me, I would prefer to post nothing at all, than posting for the sake of posting. That’s not what this blog is about for me, the mere thought makes me uncomfortable.
This blog was born to express myself and get my emotions out when I couldn’t in real life, as well as to make people laugh. I don’t feel me spamming you with shitty posts, is staying the true to myself, just to try and keep up with a challenge I set for myself.
Whenever I feel forced or backed into a corner to do something (even if I’m the one who put myself there) my instant reaction is to pull back. My inner rebel screams no, jumps the fence and runs a mile. The only one pressuring me to do this, is me, and if I’m not happy why force it?
I felt like I was letting people down by not sticking to my word and posting everyday, but realistically, it’s not going to effect any one if I don’t!! I know my followers who have been with me for a while will understand where I’m coming from as I think you guys know me pretty well. I don’t want to add even more pressure to myself with everything else going on right now, I’m so focused on not getting mentally ill after Christmas (More on that here) I think I need to listen to my warning signs more when things are piling up on me. I’m still going to post, as this is what I LOVE to do, but I’m going back to posting when I feel like it.
How are you handling Blogmas? Are you on track or have you given up like me?! I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below!!
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