My mum had the kiddies for two nights and I feel so much better. The stress that was giving my heart palpitations has melted away and I feel human again. I’ve still been working loads but it’s not gotten to me, I think I really needed these few days to catch up on some sleep and woosaaaa. Now it’s the weekend I get two day off work too.
I’m going to pick the kids up soon, I’m slightly worried, what if as soon as I see them the stress comes rushing back? I can’t say this out loud so I’m saying it here. I love my children to death and they’re not bad kids, but they’re just hard work. I don’t feel like I get a second to myself when they’re around and it’s drained the life out of me. It’s been so nice not having to stress over what they want for dinner, not having to do their washing, not having to do bedtimes, not having to pull them apart when they’re arguing…. it’s been so peaceful.
I’ve not had sex in the morning for a long time, but having a huge lie in and a quickie before getting up was heavenly. I’ve blitzed the house so it’s all nice and clean to be trashed as soon as they walk in. I’m heading of now to grab them, I’ll add an update this afternoon.
I am snuggled up on the sofa watching the Secret life of pets, still nice and relaxed. I even took the kids food shopping without a hitch. No screaming or rowing as of yet, thank god. I’m relieved the stress didn’t instantly come flooding back as I thought it would. It shows the problem was more within myself than with my children. Which is a big weight off my shoulders.
Everyone has their limits, I think over time stress and worry builds up and up until you think there’s no way out and that it’ll never end. That’s where I was at.
Sex and sleep solves everything!
How’s your weekend going? I’d love to hear in the comments below?
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